Hi there, brothers and sisters in Christ! Welcome to His Table Is Ours. We are so happy you stumbled across us this morning. Today, we are going to allow ourselves to marinate in the unchanging truth of God’s word and what He says about you. We all struggle, have weakness, or don’t believe the very truth. I want to open your mind about something today, hoping you are able to see from a better lens to aid in your understanding of Who You Are. To begin, take up to 20 minutes and reflect upon where you haven’t recently felt great about yourself and where that comes from? An event that happened, trauma, a situation. I say “up to” because we aren’t going to overthink and then become miserable and feel bad things. I want you to recall and go from there as you read this so you may begin to unravel the wisdom upon the weakness and insecurity root. You know how they say junk/fast food is slowly killing? Well, insecurity and unforgiveness is even worse for you. You don’t think much of it in the moment due to hunger, convenience, or alternative ease. But, then after some time you start to feel, see, and understand the damage it causes in sickness, inflammation, rejection, and disease even. The same thing will happen when you allow yourself to consume such toxic thoughts, opinions, and judgement from others or yourself even. You at one point felt great about your strong suits, you didn’t carry the weight of a mistake, and you knew that those things weren’t you or your identity. Now, after some time, you noticed patters in the offense, or even still have the same or different people saying similar things in your life. Pointing out your flaws rather than commenting on the good, questioning something you aren’t sure about leaving you feeling insecure, throwing passive detrimental seeds in your mind that are a “joke”, cynically. You then begin recognizing, and accepting without even caring about these things anymore so much you start to believe them. They begin draining you of your known worth, depriving your understanding and defense, and wearing down your own moral. This begins to damage your confidence, forgiveness, and grace for you and many others. And it’s not true to say the least. You aren’t who they say you are. Your mistakes don’t define you. What you deem as your “worst” decision doesn’t define you either. God needed those things to happen for you to see. We previously spoke on perceiving properly and the importance it holds in Who Knew. I recommend taking a read if you haven’t once you are finished here. The root of others attempted offense lays in someone’s own pain, insecurity, or weakness. It never had anything to do with you. Think for a second: Who began speaking that person that way for them to reiterate the behavior to someone else blameless and well, there is never a call for such behavior to even your worst enemy. Who began making them feel worthless, undervalued, or depreciated? Before you receive the back-hand of someone’s unhealed pain, they went through something, likely more than one time and repeatedly that they now portray and characterize themselves with it. This is destructive, plenty more harmful than you would ever think in the moment, and requires healing to an extent and territory. How much territory do other’s unhealed pain contaminate? Answer is a lot. Your looking at it and experiencing it in more ways than the eye could ever meet. Now, does something inside you low-key or high-key depending on the person reading this feel compassion for these people? They really believe the lies, degraded, undervalued way people have been treating, defining, or abusing them. That makes my heart frown. They have no problem with you, they are responding to you the way those people do to them. The people won’t let go of their mistakes, they have no grace for them, they are hard headed, unhealed themselves from the same thing, and have weak insecurity they operate from. It’s a cycle that goes on and on, generationally until someone decides to be the change. Truth is, we are all (yes, your worst enemy here on earth too) made in the image of Christ (God). He is perfect, spotless, more gracious than this world could ever be, compassionate to the deepest depths of healing you could ever experience, and patient in more ways than you have once again ever experienced. It’s hard to believe these things are real or true because of the way the world treats us and what we experience here with others. Believe God when I say there is a Jesus in you that was made to shine brighter than anything. That out stands every flaw you could ever have! We are out here trying to chase the world’s demanding ways, expectations, and ability when the world itself is damaged, broken, corrupted, and ungodly in every possible way. Hint: that is why you likely hate as much as you do and feel as if life is impossible at times or often. Been there sister, experienced that brother. You must know, God didn’t mess up, say oops, or mistake one thing when you created you, His creation, or human kind itself. We are the ones who messed up by being deceived by the thought we could ever do something that we were never created to do vs the one who made us is able to do. We try to be God more than we think and I myself have been healing from that just recently. One big factor being the people in my life and our relationships. The bigger picture of how they will be, look like, or where they will go. I previously have never had long-term relationships, friendships, or success in any “ship”. My insecurity lays within the fact i’ve witnessed one too many people what you could say, walk away, give up, or act careless as if I never impacted their life, meant one thing to them, or was worth my presence or being. That has broke me, upset me, and wounded my hope for a successful relationship and people being around me because I struggle wanting to let people in from always experiencing failure and a sense of worthlessness. While, I may feel this way, had some sad trauma, I know God didn’t put me through those things for no reason. I fought while others gave up. Yet, it was never an option for me to give up. So I did every possible thing “I” could. The err in this lays where I was never the one in control or the one who put them in my life. I would have never ever known or determined the family, friends, co-workers, or any in between of people in my life. God always has held the outcome of this all knowing each and every one holds purpose, value, and a foundation. Now, when not built on or with God. It will always fail, corrupt, or deprive of any and all aspects likely because it simply is not appropriate but abusive and lustful. We often times act in lustful ways not even recognizing it due to our previous pain and experiences. We are tired of expecting anything good, setting boundaries for well-being, and for showing up, trying, when we don’t see that behavior back. Starts to feel like it has become one sided. Lust is “I want this one thing, area, and part of you.” The rest is treated meaningless and ignored. Weather you recognize it or not. Unhealed pain will make you someone God never created you to be truly. Do you remember how we spoke about God being intentional? Well to recap, He put you in those relationships, friendships, and situations for a reason. He didn’t mess up, even when it was your will, sinful, or toxic. He knows, I could have never ever known what I had approached and intended for sexual desires and lust would turn into something with such severity that when it did collapse I was at a wits end which Led me to find God. Long story short, The Greatest Thing that ever happened to me! Brother, I could have never seen that coming, I was trying to cope from pain and brokenness, having sex to try to. Deep down I was so tired, and in so much pain. It’s only God’s grace that I am where I am. Wow. He saw me well before I ever even recognized Him, or cared to. 🥺 He was so patient. And Something inside me wants to talk about this next part, so trust. I used to be addicted to masturbating and I didn’t quite see or recognize that for a while, but I want to admit it. And God helped me see that. I held a lot of insecurity when I would have sex with anyone because there was a lack of a connection, trust, or bond. It was outside of marriage and I also never wanted to have sex with anyone outside of that. I wasn’t in an actual relationship with anyone I had sex with. It was uncomfortable, not secure emotionally, and it left me questioning “what was I even doing here?” an amount of times. I perceived it as pleasure being able to “doing something” for others, but it was never for me. It left me worse and worse again and again. It was a vicious cycle. I reflect quite a lot lately on healing from my past sex life. It hurt and really crushed my soul. I was so tired. Brother I just wanted a hug at the end of the day most of the time. It makes me pretty sad I thought and felt what I did, no one else could help me so I “helped” myself and it then developed into a coping mechanism, vice, and idol. That hurts my heart but what heals it is that God saw me and didn’t leave me there alone. In my filth, dirt, and ash. He saw His daughter, not my sexual insecurity, immorality, or sin. He saw I needed help. And well, He did quite the thing to get me. And I know He will do the same for you. Im so grateful after all I went through, faced, and did that He still showed me how valuable and worthy I am because, Child He made me, and in the like-ness of Himself. He looks at me and see’s love, He see’s his own heart, He see’s a precious white lamb. That’s metaphorical as in, I was never dirty, the things I was doing were, I was never broken, but the way I felt was. I wasn’t helpless, yet I was worth more than how I presented myself as or how I treated myself. I was created for something Sacred, Holy, Valuable, Emotionally Secure, and Firm. A foundation, not a rental. Bound with Christ’s very blood and shaped by God’s perfect image. If you struggle, fear, worry, or doubt. Brother and sister, you’re in my prayers. And many other’s, including Christ himself. You are not what you do, have done, or struggle with. You Are His, and You Are Perfect! (Even with you’re imperfections.) I love you so much 🤎🤎🤎 You are so beautiful, loving, kind, incredible, and compassionate. If He found me sitting in filth, dirt, addiction, and insecurity, He is with you right there where you are too. You are that Precious Lamb, Holy, and full of true righteousness. (Ephesians 4:24) You are new in Christ and His whole Family, His body, God’s Children! The connection between the mind and heart is bidirectional, meaning that they influence each other in a continuous loop. They have an intimate connection, and profoundly affect one another – meaning the condition and well-being of your heart will affect how you think. Based on how it feels included. Your heart will orchestrate how your mind flows. If you have felt deemed worthless, insecure, or helpless. Your heart is affected by these things. You are who God says you are. Not your past mistakes or experiences. Your heart condition is important based upon how you resist or tend to the rest in your mind. Healing begins in the heart. (Psalm 73:26) God is our portion: Unwavering Hope, Security, and a promise that lasts forever and is unbreakable. Your own decision, actions, or choices may have betrayed your heart and left you not even trusting yourself, but God is your strength made perfect in weakness. ( 2 Corinthians 12:8-9) That’s why you can rejoice because you aren’t left in that state and it isn’t your strength. It’s a promise from God, Firm. Remember; secure, doesn’t fluctuate, unchanging, and unbreakable too. Your worth is found in God’s heart, how He created you out of the very dust and bones you once were(Genesis 2:7). And when you begin to see and discover that, it is treasure, healing, and hope. (Matthew 6:21) The world may have uncertainty left and right, but God is unchanging, and the Same Yesterday, Today, and Forevermore. Where you know your worth, value, and portion is. There your heart is also. Healing comes in this. It was never about our mistakes but His unshakable, proof filled love that chases us down until the end of ourselves, never about our bad decisions and sin, but about Who He made you to be in His Image and that the price is paid. You are Perfect, with your flaws and all. He said It Is Well. It’s His heart over your past. Because Child, His heart doesn’t end and there you will find who you are and everything else you will ever need. My God, may His peace fill you up entirely today and right now hallelujah. God is So Good. He loves you so much and wow I am so thankful He made you with the most genuinality I have in my heart to you Child. He didn’t make one mistake. You’re so beautiful and Whole Daughter and Son. I love You. You’re so precious. The sex, the drugs, the alcohol, the relationships, the mistakes, the errors, the brokenness, the pressure. It’s all done and paid with Jesus. God came in the flesh to let you know not even the worst thing you feel, have done, or experienced is too much or will stop Him from being there for you and saving you. If you have had it in your heart to lay it down and find salvation, I want to invite you to His feet where more security, love, and restoration filled hope will flow upon, within, and near you. He’s here for you and not one day of your life has he not been there already. Wow, He loves us so much. I am sending a hug overflowing with His love your way.

Pray: Father God, thank you so much for your promise and heart that is both unending and always forevermore all the days of my life. May I rest in the depths of your heart and lay it all down from the very pain of just yesterday, along with my past, to brighter days and lighter breaths. God, show me who you made me to be and heal me of the corruptive state of my past, coping mechanisms, and vices. Show me the truth and root behind every addiction and belief of lies and heal every single soul that has been intertwined into the very scheme and deceit it is detrimental to our beings. God, restore us to the state you created us to be and thank you for never leaving me the same way you found me. In Jesus’ Precious, Worthy, Holy Name. Amen.

Jeremiah 29:13

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I want to say that if you struggle with pornography, addiction, masturbation, drugs, or any form of coping. You’re not alone and my heart grieves along with God’s at the pain you went through to feel that way. Your healing is on it’s way, and I know you will see better days and live a life worth living. If He did it with me, He wants to do it with you. He is the best friend and help you could ever have. If you need further help or would like to reach out to someone we are here for you, contact us below or through our Instagram. We Love You 🤎