09/24/25 Author: Nickolette Burnette

Hi beautiful! Welcome to His Table Is Ours! I am so excited for this one – I want you to really think and be intentional with this: go to a peaceful atmosphere or space and allow yourself to meditate through your time here. Back when you were a kid, what did it look like for you at gatherings, events, parties, etc? How did you feel, respond, act, or behave? In this I am going to mention something in particular that many have probably experienced or feel to this day even, and I trust at some point you will relate to the objective of this. Growing up I went to a private Greek school. In this school, there was a lot of uniform things such as instructions, behavior, and responses. I was only in this school up until the 4th grade. During the time in this school, I was a relatively shy, quiet, introverted child. I didn’t feel comfortable around anyone or thing. It was very awkward and felt ingenuine. I was the last one who anyone wanted to partner or play with, be around, you name it. I was always such an observant person – even as a child, so I noticed how different there behavior was to me vs how someone who made me feel valued, seen, and interested in my being was. By noticing that I was being left out of these things hurt me, It made me feel as if I didn’t hold anything valuable. It definitely caused insecurity, anxiety, and nervousness that made me sick at times. I knew I always cared so much, at times, too much. The difference from how people whom listened and care about me to people who were classmates, supposed to be friends, and even older people around was hurtful to the perspective of myself I had. I was brand new to it and it wasn’t necessarily inviting or welcoming. I had good intentions and did not ever want to partake in foolery, trouble, or talking about things I knew were hurtful to others – which may have left me out more. I disliked anything like that and I avoided it at all costs due to the affect I saw on others in my life being the pin point of this. Something never sat right in my spirit even as a child with those who partook in unkind things. I felt as if everyone’s common sense even at such a young age should have portrayed appropriate actions but that wasn’t the case. I am relatively outgoing, bold, and courages in ways many around me would be very quick to feel timid restraint to take up a challenge for. Once I noticed others behaviors, looks, or the exclusion I automatically felt very unaccepted. Me not partaking in unkind and vain things left me isolated. Coming all the way to where I am today, I do at times notice insecurity from my past. No one likes the feeling of not being included or acknowledged necessarily in an unkind way. That same feeling of thinking your invaluable or unaccepted may come up. The truth is, this likely isn’t about you at all. It feels not great experiencing such things because you may think “why”? Well, God has showed me drastically otherwise and placed me in positions where the actual wonderful person I am was invited, accepted, chosen, and all the things – you name it. To this day I notice those who may be in that position I once was in, and something in me always wants to make them feel seen, accepted, and valued. They matter, even if they aren’t there with God yet, (still living for the world) they are still accepted. Especially as a Child of God, this world may not accept them, but you brother and sister, yes, we are called to. I know Jesus would sit with that person and talk to them as if they were never strangers. Jesus knows who made them and what they hold in such value and worth that they never need to prove to anyone. It’s there, the insecurity that once dimmed them will slowly fade off and there valuable beauty will come out. Ask yourself; What are you doing when you notice this and are you praying to notice it so that you can be the difference for them to see God in there life? Before I knew God I had used to work in a place that was only boys – yes. Insane, but God had a plan – I recommend reading throughout my other pages to understand that entirely in-depth. It’s a huge contribution to my testimony. It weaves together beautifully by the one and only God, my savior. 🤎 So at first sister, I was very intimidated and nervous. I was thinking all types of things, felt insecure, and didn’t know if I could be me. But yet, they were to my surprise graceful and consistent in making me feel so welcomed, invited, and included. It was the first time I felt so valued in the smallest ways by an entire group. One thing in particular that did make me feel this way was lunch, they would always 9 times out of ten include everyone, yes even me! My heart still smiles at this very very small act of kindness and consideration – it was never about hunger or money for me. It was the heart posture and root. We would all sit together in the spot – a pretty janky concrete break room that held much of our time. Not only that, but they would value what I wanted and get my order. It was seriously so heart warming as the girl I was and to this day man awww 🥹. Lunch was the best time ever for that group. I scrunch up in such appreciation and love for the very thought of that. At the time I was a version of myself I had never been before. Who was very broken, hurt, and hardened by the result of my own free decision and will of choices at the time. God used that group to show me things that I’d never experienced or known before – and that’s not even the smallest amount of what He did regarding them. Come to where I was earlier this year In late March – I stepped into a church alone for the first time since I had found my relationship with God back in June 2024. Going into it this, I was closed off and very on guard for my well-being honestly. Being the world really damaged and hurt me, I didn’t know where it would go this time around here but I knew I held value and had something to give. To my surprise, God placed a very special soul there. This person has been there since day 1 and is such a cherished brother in Christ to this day. My previous experiences weren’t great in a relational aspect and since I went the breakup I did, being around that many people and back in church was raw to me. I was very closed off in this place for a while. This person would always acknowledge me. Something as valuable as Hi, how are you and go from there was so small yet so critical in where I am today. He would invite me to a brunch, get together, relatively anything He was invited to and He would never ever make me feel as if it’s a burden. It was like, don’t worry, I’ve got you and make me feel so welcomed, not left out. With that, it did take sometime before I finally went out when there was a larger group because it would make me feel overwhelmed and as if what I cared about bringing to the table would run out, or that I would remain unseen or end up feeling awkward. I really didn’t want to feel such bad ways. But, He would reassure me, make me feel safe, and understand with no words needed to be said. Because these very people I was worried about being around held value too. God used Him to show me I’m not excluded or unseen. That I am valuable and I hold something so so important for so many people. Little did I know. And these people are wonderful and delightful. In all honesty, It was a slow, graceful process but It was beautiful and helped me see that even though I went through what I did in my past, being around people was possible again. I really thought I’d never have a relationship if anything friendship again and I really left it that way myself. God has progressed me elsewhere because have you heard the term ” Spread the Good News” well, “There you go” He said. I do have something to bring to the Table God Prepares For Me. (Hint) And He was at the other side of that table more than anyone was to begin with in my slow process. I would have never expected Him to impact me or my life the way He has, but God has a plan and He knows what I needed. He would call me just to check on me and the way I would think to myself “what really? I thought it was an accident more than once that He called me. But, God placed me so intentionally in each specific place: that job and in this church. He needed me to experience the pain and isolation before the stewarded knowledge and concentration. The pain brought me understanding, experience, and intimacy in which required healing, growth, and mental expansion. Without this, there wouldn’t be the wisdom, knowledge, or knowing the difference between feeling valued or not. And without feeling unseen, broken, and left out than how would I notice others who do feel this way? God doesn’t waste anything you go through or experience. This inspired and encouraged me to see so much and take bigger steps, which this time, was not alone. God put us in one another’s life for a greater reason than we know. He’s not a friend, but family. I once heard this metaphor that went – as many people as God wants you to reach is as many times as He will break you. The metaphorical reference is related to the story in The Bible of breaking bread and feeding the 5,000 with loaves and fishes. In reference to how breaking the bread multiplied for God’s people to be fed. You, His vessel can’t feed others unless the bread gets broken. We are Christ’s body – which is the bread. This realization is Profound, I invite you sit in that one and think about something you may at one point have despised ever going through or still maybe think “why” to yourself to begin to understand the depth of it. God works in mighty ways. Do you see how my experience turned into a reflection of Jesus’ character for others and that it produced an expanded branch of how God foreknowingly planned to use me? It held value, intention, and purpose the whole time. God chose me to experience what I did for something so much greater than I knew when I was in it at the time. From the heartbreak to being left out and feeling so under valued or appreciated. (John 13:7) The very thing that you experience, God uses. And God chose for you. He chose you to live the life He gave you, that held failure, mistakes, sin, errs, all of it. Once you realize how the very worst feeling or things we face God uses to help someone else’s life, being, and salvation through you will be the most fulfilling, perspective expanding broadening, beautiful moment of “Thank God it wasn’t for nothing”. You were never left out, at all. God included you in His plan before you ever existed here. If you are breathing, then God isn’t finished either. He chose and called you. Know, the broken multiply for His purpose and plan to redeem mankind and walk in purpose. Jesus was broken and crucified on that cross, that very breaking and sacrifice produced a fruit for us, making it possible us to come to His feet and go home to Him – to be and walk saved. (Isaiah 53:10-11) Your being, presence, and being will never be wasted. If you are in a season of isolation or obscurity, know that it holds growth, building, and such an opportunity for wonderful intimacy unlike anything else with Christ and Your Father, God. Don’t despise what may feel or seem difficult because these times are the grandest for God to work in those things. The valleys are always only just the beginning of a life changing opportunity, give yourself the opportunity to know God for who He is and ask for Him to reveal Himself to you in that season where you need it. You will begin to understand and experience how profound, wide spread, and unending God is. Something wonderful I myself have experienced in my life is hearing and intentionally perceiving other’s experiences and testimonies of salvation and God Himself. It has been beyond a revelation of God’s mighty hand and unfailing plan over us all. He will do the most miraculous, detailed, strategic things to get your attention and you’d never see it coming because, He Chose You. How amazing is that? God chose you to break that chain, to reach those people, to heal your generation. You name that thing, because He chose you for it. Hallelujah! You are worth being seen, heard, and valued. There is never a time you aren’t by the Highest of Highs, Our King, God. So please, Do not believe the lies of the things around you who may not be a great crowd making you feel anything less than who you are, but instead know they are not invaluable either, but pray for them and ask God for you to understand how or where you can pray for them and what they need. Be as Jesus is, not as Judas was and Wash the feet of those who hurt you, betray you, or leave you feeling the worst and watch God reveal things you didn’t understand the “why” of. Because God has a plan and He will never stop chasing you. You have a choice to walk with Him or be led down a path that leaves you questioning with no answers and left in more darkness and unending pain than anything. One brings life, and one abuses who God created, formed, and molded you to be. You were made to shine on a hilltop and be the salt of the earth. Brother and sister, your pain holds purpose and you were never unheard, unseen, or left out. God was with you the entire time. (Immanuel – God is with us) and you could never do anything wrong, bad, or illegal to change that because Jesus is the proof of it the fact that God Loves You Child. Peace be upon you all, amen. God be the Glory and may your very High, Worthy, Mighty Name be magnified all of the days here and with you. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Let us have a moment of pure, genuine gratitude toward God and His worthy forever sacrifice for us, Jesus, His Son, whom He sent for us that we may Live through Him and have life abundantly and be set free from the chains of death, addiction, and sin because our God doesn’t play. He is here and here now. Let us live in and for Him, set free In Jesus’ Name! GOD BE MAGNIFIED AMEN.

Romans 8:31

What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?