05/30/26 written By Nickolette Burnette

Hi! My name is Nickolette, the genius, mind, and well – perhaps you should say the one who experiences everything i write about here. that is quite literally the inspiration. we are a faith-based blog testifying to the greatness of God, ultimately through my life. I’m not perfect, even though it’s wired in me to try to be. God is working on me, in me, and well gets glory in it all. Here I am today, writing about a mystery, a depth, something that never ends and that is eternal, that would be God. I find myself going through what feels like a desperate rollercoaster of what is actually going on and why. Once i think i figure something out, which feels like it takes almost for me to of lost my sanity to finally, here we go, something i do not have figured out.. again. O, my gosh. I’m crying, probably, literally. Pray for me.

Well, let us think here, what really is the point, we are going against the worlds mindset and formulated ways and than our environmental, human understanding to a great God we will never fully know the depths of here. Crazy. I’m trying not to lose my mind because wuuuuut. cue “What A God” because I mean, oooooooweeeee. He is Jehovah Rapha, Jehovah Nissi, Jehovah Rapha, he is our Husband, our manssss, our friend, our father! What isn’t he? by the way… if you do not know him you should like.. get to know Him, (wink). He is really so cool and he created me, you, and everything that surrounds and sustains us. from food to trees, your friends and the people who built the house you live in. What A God!

While i can personally say i want to do anything possible to go through a storm, valley, or life easier or smoother. Who.. doesn’t. you’d b e surprised because some people live like they got 9 lives… it scares me… im like does anyone need gum or a bandaid over here… I just like can’t help but think it’s not about fixating on that. Truly, the amount of time we try the worlds way or our own likely trauma response to figure something out or make sense of it. it’s like digging a hole deeper. i can’t begin to help myself if it wasn’t for the Word of God. wow. i must confess which ive previously admitted to i thought i could live without it because the presence of God alone is sooooooooo astonishing at how ive witnessed it sustain me in my life through soooo many seasons and times i can’t help but believe that. but as lazy, negative, or where we route to rotting ourselves away in useless, unhelpful, unproductive ways. God’s way will always come back around being true because like nothing could ever substitute him, his truth, way, life, light or presence. Not one thing. it’s so easy to get caught up in things, simply the ways of the world we live in for something to fulfill us; sex outside of marriage for intimacy, worldly friendships, abusive substances, or simply a life chasing things that will never fill us. Unfortunately, while it’s temporary, internally, we are still searching, i find myself feeling like a Looney Tunes desperate, lost hurt girl on the inside when i don’t know what’s happening or why. i tend to blame myself or think it’s something ive done or that I’m committing sin and falling short in every way and o my goshhh im just not meeting the mark, hyperspiritualizing things tbh, which i admit i do when i just need to let go and let God do his Job. Which will never be my job is why i am looooooosing my mind. Try doing something you simply were not created to do. Paul refers to something around this topic slighty in one of his letters regarding One Body Many Members using the metaphor of if you are a toe and not a brain, don’t be envious to want to be a brain because there is one body, but yet we are all In Christ and play an important role. like at church when you serve, theres people in the cafe, the ushers, the greeters, the photographers. Maybe you want someone else’s role or part sooo bad but don’t underestimate the importance a toe has! Or a finger, just as a brain. You are still important and apart of the body! Anyway, i recommend reading on that and praying on it perhaps for yourself in your alone time with God, maybe even a small group study conversation. well, to get to know what we were made for you can’t do that without knowing the one who made you or what He has given to us, his word. and of course, his church, a pastor, sermons, teachers, those further along in the journey. They have lived life longer and do hold an importance; the bible talks about this. Now whatever it is, it still goes back to God knowing it and providing it all along the way. while i am writing this, im still figuring out so much myself, i get overwhelmed, upset, sad and just feel so lost in despair these days. But my story is being written just like yours and it holds purpose! So i encourage you, get in your bible, do not set expectations that burden you (honestly, i need to tell myself this), and ask God! Ask ask ask ask ask and ask again! Ask and you shall receive, knock and the door will be opened, and seek and you will find! God bless you, i hope you are encouraged on this Saturday Evening or whenever you read this. let’s stick together in this and lift one another up out of sincerity and pure devotion to the life God has given us in Christ. Hallelujah! Love you brother and sister on the other side of this! Let us Give God Glory!

Matthew 7:7