written by Nickolette Burnette,

By God’s Grace it will be done

Hey everyone, Welcome back, we’re so happy to have you here. I got somethings on my mind I would like to speak about as they are important to acknowledge, especially walking in faith. So, I find myself these days thinking about men more than anything, being wrapped up, adored, wined and dined even by one. Ladies, the desire is real! I come from where maybe at one point I had good intentions yet I always struggled to steward or navigate them for a well outcome in all honesty. I never wanted to be intimate sexually with anyone before I was married. And unfortunately, sin took heed and things looked different-but My God is a redeemer and I acknowledge that is all passed away as I am new in Christ. In these past few months I’ve experienced people interested in me, in which – the excitement and dreams are real! It’s so surreal and exhilarating to be in. I also must confess that I almost always at some point think about sexual intimacy as well- it’s hard not to. Someone’s interested in you and like, if that man is someone you end up marrying and dating- being with. The day will come, and that to me, for as exciting as mentally I think “Lord, I made it” – it’s about more than that. Sex used to be the pedestal of my life, personality, and everything I feel at one point. It was an idol. What turned into doing it with one person turned into doing things I am not proud of with a married man- someones father, a husband. Which, there is no shame in that. When someone wants you, as a woman – while I’m not sure how it is exactly for a man. It’s the best feeling to be wanted, to be desired, for you to be on someones mind that you like. – Last night I ended up going to a concert with some great friends, in which I am so grateful. And one of the artists that had opened for this concert I somehow ended up being nearly a foot away from. I immediately was like – LORD, this is you??? You did this??!! talk about fan-girling, I couldn’t help it. And my immediate thought was dang He’s so fine in person whattttttt. He was, must I say. The cut was clean. The fit was nice. All the things, I guess. But then, I began to think. All these things pass away at one point and you’re left with none of that. I Can’t tell you how many times that was nothing after doing all these things. Heavens gates are filled with the glory of God and while I attended this concert and the artists did awesome, at the end of the day. They aren’t who it’s about. Because, they humbly, by God’s grace do this for Him, His message, His people. It’s not about the merch, or the beat, the label/brand. It’s about the message and Gods beautiful Son Jesus. Who deserves far more than what everyone gave in praises, glory, and attention at this concert. I was chillin, I had to check my heart and know while it would have been totally fine and ok to tend to the excitement of the moment. I thought nothing of him before, I don’t know him. And in all honestly. God is the one worthy of thanks and praise for what He’s doing. I did what I wanted and walked away because well. Decisions aren’t always easy, but they are more important than other things you may have hoped for which could be found in better ways. So, in that. I feel I was and have been lusting over and maybe just dwelling too much on the idea of a man, sexual intimacy, and being desired. In which these things are real and there is no shame in them – we all likely have or will experience this at one point or another. But, I don’t want to forget the point of it all. This artist I saw for his appearance in that moment, Well God saw in his pain well before a thing. A Son whose story was at gunpoint with himself one day. A Son who almost didn’t experience life at all, more than once. Now He’s telling of that, on a stage, humbly. And I feel I saw that in Him in my soul. His humility for what He does. And remembering the One who saved Him from death. This Son of His, is Kijan Boone. I bought a t-shirt, which will now be my pajamas likely, and accepted the humbleness of my deepest weakness at times and walked away. This person I received the merchandise from said God Bless you. And I took that. That’s a gift. So, Glory to God. I love you Lord. It makes me so happy to see how many people He has kept alive after the deep, dark moments of agony and pain our souls have went through. It means everything to me that there still here. God Bless and Take care everyone.

Matthew 28:19